He Trapp,
Im sorry to read live is kicking you in the ass right now. It all seams so unfair. Also losing a close friend is a hard pill to swallow. Live should stop for a second and everyone should take notice of this event. Also the trigger for most depressions
I read the comments and it seems you have some good friends here with some solid advice. Depression is no joke and many of us are working hard to stay positive. Your not alone in this and we will be here if you need a ear/friend.
Things that i learned in therapy are:
1. Dont make live changing decisions when your feel down and out.
2. Go outside more (sound silly but it helps)
3. Keep people around even if you dont want to and talk.
4. Rest helps. Dont need to be sleep. just laying on your bed is rest to.
5. Actualy being creative is something that helps. Just dont make things to big or put pressure on it.
6. Keep things small so you can finish them. Keep making things smaller untill you can.
7. This is kind of personal but for me lisening to music helps a lot. (use headphones to block outside noise to get rest) I sing to keep focus on the music and not let my mind wonder to much.
8. If you have a bad day let it pass without fighting yourself and try again tomorrow.
Hope you will do better soon and we can enjoy your presents and artwork again. Dont be a stranger.
You are loved.