Oh my oh my. I'm writing this on English to everyone to understand. I feel you. Everyone is different and the sentiment is well known from many of us. In my case, I've stated before, I used my creativeness to stay afloat and made me feel different things, other than the mist, fog and shadows inside my head. Creativity is kinda the motor to me. But I've got someone who takes care of the "outside" stuff, so I can take care of my house and my kids, and to try to stay good for all of us. And I know I'm very privileged for that.
Do your stuff, get your rest, heal, take care of what's more important. And hopefully, you'll be back. Terminator wise. And hopefully with a better machine... Terminator wise!
Te abrazo, amigo. Sí me di cuenta de tu ausencia y comprendo muy bien lo que pasa. Acuérdate que cuando más oscuro está y hace más frío, es porque ya pronto saldrá el sol.